I never can sleep the night before a class. The next few weeks my life enters an even more insane fever pitch of travel taking me around the Southeast… and abroad. I get December off, though. It starts again in Febuary. Somewhere in the meantime I get to do a biodiesel training for a project in the South Pacific, further confusing my brain that’s already addled by the constantly changing scenery.
Today I drove the rest of the 800 miles to Mississippi with , made it in time for the pre-class social we’d organized, and nothing blew out in the process. I’m starting to trust this van (the trailer, not so much). The drive was a near-nonstop with, apparently, no stop for food (because, like, there’s really no “food” on the road between Atlanta and lower Mississippi- the convenience stores carry an amazing variety of inedibles)- when I got to within 15 miles of my destination the host mentioned on the phone that dinner would be in an hour, and I experienced a bizarre starvation meltdown.
I burst through the doors of a chicken place to get something to stave off disaster, and could barely place an order for a snack to the person behind the counter. She commented ‘wow, you’re THAT hungry, huh?’ with a tone of concern- I think it’s pretty obvious when I’m melting down.
Tonight I was ecstatic to see that I was going to bed at 9:30… and now it’s 1 am and I"m still wide awake, despite the grueling drive. It really amazes me that I just can’t EVER sleep before a class. Tomorrow morning I’ve got a full house, and I’m sure I’ll just hit the ‘play’ button and go on autopilot and somehow use complete sentences and teach the course without really being there.
I haven’t really been to this part of the Gulf Coast since 1992. I actually went to mechanic school in New Orleans when I was 18, which was quite the experience- it was a job training program run through the federal JTPA, which meant that most of the students were there due to a probation requirement or a welfare requirement and I was probably the only one there on my own. Needless to say, they were all men, most of whom had done a lot of time in prison. They were REALLY amused by me and what I was doing there wanting to learn to work on cars. I learned a lot about prison life and their, um, values, from their conversations.
Entering Mississippi reminded me visually that this is the poorest state in the country (I think?), and that a lot more rural areas elsewhere looked like this a few years ago. Crappy roads, few chain stores (that’s not exactly bad in some ways), fourth-rate supermarket that turned out to look like a bad truckstop convenience store on steroids- I had to look to find the produce section, and was absolutely amazed at the amount of packaged processed junkfood garbage that filled the shelves. Not surprisingly, looked like lots of unhealthy people (OK, this WAS definitely in a poor part of a city, maybe I’m extrapolating unfairly to the rest of the state which I shouldn’t).
One of the Piedmont Biofuels guys I was on the phone with pointed out that parts of NC looked like this once (actually I hung out with illiterate bikers in such a place in NC once, too, that also being part of my now-less-formal mechanic education). He felt that some of those NC towns were now just plain dead and empty, with the loss of crappy-job industry like chicken processing (which is what was going on in this part of MS). It’s kind of interesting- the Piedmont crew seems to be extraordinarily sensitive to what’s going on in chicken processing these days, since their feedstock is coming from that gigantic wastestream source primarily.
Monday I flee here with whatever trailer tires I can manage to wrangle out of the local economy, run 6 hours back to Atlanta, actually relax for a day (though that means doing biodiesel-ey stuff, for me). Next week is a class in western Tennessee. I have things to do 9 hours from there, first, however.
Partway through my drive down here the Boyfriend called. I’d just been in California for 8 days of hell, processing what the hell we’re going to do there. I don’t want to go back, I don’t wanna I don’t wanna. I’ve been working on him to get out to the East Coast for the winter, do some visiting and some projects, and try to deepen some of the relationships we have with friends up and down these states- the Piedmont crew, Matt Steiman and Jenn, Dorn and Sarah, and our buddies Lu and Dawn. The trip was hell, we spent a lot of time going ’round and ’round about various issues about my having decided to leave and not come back, and I was extremely relieved that a) we worked through them and b)I’m back East.
I’d returned from the flight from California, spent a near-delerious day getting the van together and dealing with emotional turmoil, more phone calls from the Boyfriend and more resolution, all in a good way though- and then immediately jumped in the van and drove the 800 miles to another world, Mississippi. In this alternate reality that’s definitely not the California I just escaped, my host claimed tonight that there’s a diner nearby that serves deep-fried possum. And I thought I had issues. Another local who was standing nearby agreed that in fact you can buy such a thing at that one restaurant, but it’s kind of hush-hush and not on the menu. I can’t tell if they’re pulling my leg, but I am determined to find out. I immediately insisted that I get to see (and presumably eat, and possibly even review) this scary thing. I wonder what fryer oil (or french fries for that matter) that have had possum fried in it is like?
After this I’m heading back 800 miles to where I came from. The Boyfriend just decided today that he’s going to get on a plane- we spent a few HOURS of my drive on the phone, all of which helped me deal with the horrendous drive- and follow me out there for a week while I"m in inter-class hell, the better to make the decision about whether to come spend the winter here with me or not. I’ll be picking him up on Wednesday, spending a few days trying to see what we think of my new situation here, then driving another 10 hours to another class. Then back, spending some more time processing what he’ll think of my new winter home, then dropping him at the airport. I have a birthday on the 16th which I’ll probably spend packing, then on the 17th I shift gears and fly out to Fiji for 10 days to do a training for a production startup. then… I’m back, I have free time (ie poverty), and I get to finally get to know the community I just joined out here.